I did something really bad. Truly.
I park my car down the side of our block of units under next doors tree. When I start my car up I always let it run for a bit while I put on my seatbelt etc, the main reason I do this is there is a blue tongue lizard who lives under the cement slab where my car is and I don’t want to run him over. Well, off I go early this particular morning this week when I felt a ‘bump’ hmm I figured it must have been a tree branch that had fallen and I didn’t see it, as I drove up the driveway I looked in my rear vision mirror and I could see this little black cat doing the death throws. I stopped my car and just screamed and cried. I was so distraught that I was heaving. I knew there was nothing I could do for it, and it wasn’t actually making any noise, so I’m not sure if it was dead and the nerves were reacting (like a chook with its head cut off) or what, but I just sat in my car and cried and cried.
Thankfully, it all happened quickly, though for me it seemed an eon.

Now, it doesn’t matter how much someone tells me that it was a feral or that it wasn’t my fault, I still feel awful.

To top matters off, that night a cat was walking around our unit block crying. I just couldn’t sleep, I keep seeing the cat dying and then this other one crying, so I went out on our verandah and this little black cat walks by and I start talking to it (I’m on the first floor) it was obviously the sibling of the one that died because they were identical. I stood there and talked to it for about 15 minutes, don’t forget that it’s feral and they usually run away at the sight of humans! I apologised to it and said I didn’t mean to do it etc. Then after a little while it went away and didn’t cry again.

I hope it forgave me.

I honestly, cannot comprehend people who are cruel to animals. I think they are sick and should be locked away, if they can do horrid things on purpose to a defenceless animal they just don’t deserve to be on this earth. A strong statement I know, but I just sit there crying when I see stories on the news about kids, teenagers or adults mistreating animals. I’m not a violent person, but if I could get hold of them, I’d do to them what they did to the animal.

Animals can teach us so much about how to handle life, they are truly special creatures to have and we should respect them as such.

I’ve always said that when I get elderly I’ll probably turn into the neighbourhood cat lady or something!

Till next week.

Katrina