So, going into week three or is it week four now of the Bootcamp Manifesting Course?  I seem to lose track of time so quickly these days!  I have to admit I haven’t been doing this course as regularly as I probably should, but there is so much going on at the moment. Isn’t that the excuse we always use?

I’m just so busy at the moment, I don’t have the time.

Yet, I know that if someone asked me to do something, then I’d find the time.  Why is it that we tend to put ourselves and what we want to do last?  Men don’t seem to have that same problem, though I’m sure some of them do. I feel that women especially put everyone else first and themselves last, then all of a sudden we get full of resentment because we’re not being treated how we feel we should be treated. We’re treated like housemaids or slaves or something but then, if we are truly honest, we’ll know that we did it to ourselves.

We taught others to treat us like slaves.

If you don’t believe me, then what do you think putting everyone else first does?  It teaches them to put you last so you can’t complain when they actually do put you last.  What you need to do is start putting yourself first, in little ways. Learn to say no if you don’t want to do something.  Here’s a news flash for you, when you say no, the world won’t end.  Regardless of what others may say, it actually won’t end.

Go figure.

I digress and let’s get back to manifesting.  I had to do an exercise where we declutter our thought processes and this is a lot harder than going through some drawers and cupboards! I had to write down all the people and what they said / did and then forgive them, say I’m sorry and then say I love them.  Don’t stress, this wasn’t to their faces!  This exercise can go way back to when you were really little and something that someone may have said or did that hurt you stuck with you. You remember those moments, write them down and do the exercise of forgiveness.

I cried through it, I really did.

Telling people that I forgive them, that I’m sorry and that I love them wasn’t easy.  Especially, towards myself.  And what I’m supposed to do now is that every time one of those negative thoughts pop up, write it down and do the process again until it’s gone.

And while it’s a tough one to do, there is also a real sense of healing and clearing in it as well.  You do feel lighter once you’ve gotten through the tough emotions.  And now, if something comes up I do that exercise on the spot. I think of the person and what happened and how it hurt and then I do the I forgive, I’m sorry and I love you and work on letting it go.

Who knew there was so much little bits of shit still lingering around in my mind?!

Emotionally with my business I’m a lot calmer and just taking things day by day, still waiting for the new VA to take over so that it can free me up for some stuff.  And of course my days are busy with the 9toThrive expo coming up and getting everything organized, the launch of the Monster Box there as well.

While I haven’t necessarily manifested any money, the bank account is looking a bit like Old Mother Hubbard’s Cupboard! LOL  I do feel calmer.

And that’s got to be a good thing, right?

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I’m also not sharing this to try and sell it to you, but because I thought you may enjoy hearing about how I do things, how they affect me and how I handle them, because believe me, I go through just as much shit as all of you!!!!